Nobody

I am a storm, chaos, sorrow, rage, and betrayal.
Yet I am also sunshine, peace, joy, calmness, and love.
I have many regrets, am tired, and very emotional.
But I am thankful, still eager, and willing to have
A numb heart. So I won't feel anything in this
World that made me experience not everything,
But somehow enough to make me wish that I should miss
The first race I had in my mother's womb. Not winning
Inside her belly would have been better. But is it?
Is it really much better that way? Would it be great
If I did not have a life at all? If the jigsaw did not fit,
Is being a nobody amazing? If He did not create
Something like me, I would be everything I want.
But no. I am the ocean and the mermaid all at once.
I am a siren and a witch who can sing an evil chant.
I am a comedienne and a clown with lots of puns.
Yet. I am still a nobody. If everything is taken away
From me, I am literally a nobody. Take my wit off
Away from me as well as my life and throw it on a bay,
I will be nothing but a load of nonsense. Blast off,
Baby! Are you going to love a nobody? A somebody like me?
If you will, you'll be chasing a hurricane. What a pity!
And. You will die by loving a beast without a piece of beauty!
But I know love and am suicidal. I'll give you immortality
Even when you are pushing up daisies. Just love a nobody like me.

From: 
The Philippines




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ABOUT THE POET ~
J.B. Nuique, aka Giudellius, is a Cebuano-speaking Negrense from the Philippines. She is an August Virgo, an artist and an ink drinker. She loves sunsets, coffee and chocolate cake. She likes rom-com films and other films with women as the main character. Other than poetry, she is writing novels about the women in her fictional country of Simetra. Her Judenne Waters, where she posted most of her works during the pandemic, is on hiatus.


Last updated September 18, 2017