by Janet Kuypers
I've been looking for a worthy adversary
someone I can lock horns with
because although my life makes more sense when I'm alone
it's not nearly as interesting
I've been looking for a worthy adversary
someone I can battle to the death with
because it can't be about love, you see
love can't exist on the terms I demand
it's never that pure
I've been looking for a worthy adversary
and so I slither up to you like a snake
as you sit there at the corner
of the bar drinking your gin and tonics
and I tempt you with a golden apple
but all I was offering you
was fruit from the tree of knowledge
I didn't know how willing you were
to take from that tree
I'm not used to that, you know
Did you know you'd need to come back for more?
Did you know what you were getting into?
well, I didn't know you'd have
a thing or two to each me too
and did I know I'd need to come back for more?
Did I know what I was getting into?
because as I've been looking for a worthy adversary
all this time I've been playing a part
an actress on a stage, spouting the lines on cue
and that role was getting tiresome
but those stage lights still came on night after night
and I still had to play my part
until on my night off I saw your performance
at the theatre down the street
and you know, your protagonist
was doing what I was doing
right down to faking it with people who don't matter
right down to going home and still feeling empty
and you know, I liked to see
that boiling emotion underneath
that no one else could see
because only I had the knowledge to know
what that emotion really means
and you know, I'm beginning to wonder
if we can get together
and write our own play
it would be a masterful performance, you know
and as that curtain would close we'd hold each other's hands
and walk off the stage
and the audience would know that there is a happy ending
and now when I walk out on to the set
and there you stand, in front, stage left
I wait for my cue to make my move
none of the rest of the scene matters to me, you know
maybe they'd like our little play, maybe they wouldn't
who really cares
because even though I came to you
and tempted you
you now tempt me and tease me and torment me
and tell me everything I was too afraid to believe
and show me the knowledge that always escaped me
and when you talk you reach your hand into my brain
and pull out my thoughts and shove them into your mouth
and spit them back at me
and instead of filling me with terror
it fills me with joy
I've been looking for a worthy adversary
and maybe you are much more than that
I've heard the words you say to me before
I've said them to myself many times
but why do they sound so much better
coming from you?
I had been looking for a worth adversary
someone I could lock horns with
but now I'm no longer locking horns
now it seems I don't have to fight the battle alone
now it seems that there's no battle to fight
we know what all the lines from our play really mean
and now we're performing for no one
now we're just ourselves
and now there's just understanding
I don't even have to speak
and now every day is Valentine's Day
and now it's like candy and flowers and springtime
and hearts and cupids and sunshine
and you know it's scary
these clichés are actually beginning to make sense
I guess that's what the tree of knowledge does to you
so this is what has been going on in my mind
and now I've just spilled my guts
and now I'm just a puddle on the floor
but now my performance of a lifetime is made
I stand here like a statue
and wait for my applause
and as I wait for the reviews
on the performance I was made for
I know what they're all going to say
and none of that matters anymore
because I know what you are going to say
because it's everything that I want to say
because now it's time
for you to take my thoughts again
and shove them into your mouth again
and spit them back at me again
and now I wait for you to come on stage again
for our next wonderful performance
where we have our happy ending
where you tell me what I already know
Last updated August 16, 2011