A Confession That Will Never Be Heard

I have the courage to say all the things I want to say
because I believe you won't get the chance to read this anyway.
and you won't waste your time reading this poem of mine
about you and this feelings of mine.

I like you and I really do.
You don't need to feel bad about not liking me too
because I Understand that you can't feel the same way
and that's totally okay.

It's me who liked you without your permission.
Liking me back is not your obligation.
It's not your fault you can't love me
it's just the way it should be.

I did not even thought I would feel this way.
I did not expect that a simple crush would turn to love.
I could not even understand how it happened or why it happened.
I just know that what I feel for you is more than I can explain.

I am asking myself over and over again why you?
and I can't find the answers, I just knew.
I keep telling myself not you anyone will do, just not you.
but I still can't help but to fall for you.

I refuse to feel this way and I can't let myself to love you.
Ten years are too absurd for me and it can never be.
Anyone will do, I keep repeating to myself not you.
It can't be you, deep inside I know this but what can I do?

Your friends would definitely hate me
Your parents would not like me.
Your siblings won't accept me
These are the factors that I should stop this already.

I can't find the answers why you, of all the people I could love
Why you? I thought to myself maybe there's some other way to forget you.
I know time will tell why did I meet you
but for now, I know the person who can break my heart is you.

If there is a chance you are reading this,
and your name starts with Emenem and Jam D. then yes this poem is for you.
I hope you won't hate me just because I like you.
Don't worry I won't push you to love me too.