Exactly That Much

Waving a beggar aside, but still giving him what he’s asking for
if he stays standing in front of me, exactly that much!

I give him money to buy drink, but five minutes later he’s again standing in front of me
and asking, before he recognises me, for exactly that much!

When he speaks to me I smell that he doesn’t smell of drink,
and no, he’s not getting money from me a second time, exactly that much!

Making myself come, when I’m far away from where I want to sleep,
not asking someone, for exactly that much!

Asking whether I can remember something I used to really want and don’t anymore,
if I’m honest I can’t think of anything, I still want it, exactly that much.

Asking whether I think it would help me if I didn’t want something anymore, it wasn’t that much,
it’s not that it would help me to want less and less, it’s not that much.

You can cut the heart out of my body if you say that that is what I owe you, exactly that much,
I didn’t make that up, I got it from an old Jew, he said I could use it as I liked, exactly that much.