from the songs album Home
Make me, make me sweat
Til i'm wet, til i'm dry
But then wipe this tear from my eye
Haven't felt this warm in a long time
Even out in the bright sunshine
In lifetime of springtimes
I fall into your arms
With my heart pumpin' on
Like a bubblin' dub track
Like a garlicy hot tonque and lip smack
I did some contemplation
Before we got down to this consecration
Maybe baby something in you kiss said
It was an impetous
For me to rethink this
If i love you
Then i better get tested
Make sure we're protected
I walk through the park
Dressed like a question mark
Hark!
I hear my memory bark
In the back of my brain,
Makn' me insane...
...like cocaine
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But how'm i gonna live my life if i'm positive?
Is it gonna be a negative?
How'm i gonna live my life if i'm positive?
Is it gonna be a negative?
But how'm i gonna live my life if i'm positive?
It dawned on me, it seemed to me
This is unusual scenery
This red light greenery
Make me feel kinda dreamery
Thinkin' how i used to be
Arrive at the clinic
Walk through the front door
Take a nervous number
Then i think about it more
About all the time
That i neglected
Makin sure that
I was protected
They took my blood
With an anonymous number
Two weeks waitin' wonderin'
I shoulda done this a long time ago
Alot of excuses why i couldn't go
I know these things and these things i must know
'cause it's better to know than to not know!
(chorus)
I go home to kick it
In my apartment
I try to give myself
A risk assessment
The wait is what can really annoy ya
Everyday is more paranoya
I'm readin' about how it's transmitted
Some behavior i must admit it
Who i slept with, who they slept with,
Who they, who they, who they slept with
I think about life and immortality
What's the first thing i do if i'm h.i.v
Have a cry and tell my mother
Get on the phone and call my past lovers
I never thought about infectin' anotha
All the times that i said "hmmm? don't bother."
Was it really all that magic?
The times i didn't use a prophalactic
Would my whole life have to change?
Or would my whole life remain the same?
Sometimes it makes me wanna shout!
All these things too hard to think about
A day to laugh, a day to cry
A day to live and a day to die
'til i find out, i may wonder
But i'm not gonna live my life six feet under
(chorus)
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