In Camera 1

Ensconced in Duchess Court she managed to retain
some antique furniture and a precarious dignity:
and after fifty years as midwife also the knack
of charming people. Here she preserves photographs,
old journals and her pain in specific detail.
The Royal Albert tea service (picked out
at Anstey’s as a bride) she uses only
for teas such as this – and all the snacks I made myself.
Now, this is the lounge where we will have our tea.

But let me show you something at the back
– please excuse the mess round here, I am
a dressmaker too, you know – designer stuff –
the place gets terribly untidy; and then, of course
Lindy’s always underfoot. Sit down! Now sit!
She gets so worked up, you see. And this gate
I had installed for my security. But just take a look
out there: You can almost see eternity. Now,
have you ever seen a view like that?

This gown I made for Marguerite. She came
round here this morning – Miss South Africa of ’68.
Never married, do you know? And still
as beautiful, although she’s put on weight.
Poor girl. I wonder, though . . . Oh, never mind,
that’s, after all, the way things go. Now come,
let’s have some tea. Do you know this? Earl Grey,
which Gavin brings from London, always fresh.
He’s with SAA, a gentleman and very kind –

The sun is shifting, she makes more tea. We speak
of this and that: My husband died in ’83, how sad
for me who had no kith or kin. But then, you see,
the Lord provides: my tiny Lindy here
is like a child and always such a joy. But what
is to become of her if I – She speaks, and all the while
the light around us fades. It’s getting late,
she notes, but don’t go yet! You have to see
the view at night. I go along with her to look:

Like a sea the city lies, incandescently inflamed
in outgrowths round the core, the outskirts –
like a nocuous yellow flicker along the seam
dividing elite and deprived neighbourhoods:
a Milky Way torn off by gravity. This is a place
of people, of passion and loneliness. She looks:
You know what this reminds me of? I listen
and then leave. But embedded in that metaphor
(a cemetery alight) I see an old placenta
splayed out – black and terminal with blight.