Returning

I return to returning
to that which drunks
me on fear.

Like the blue
within my evocation
of the water. The fear
that fills the pear-shaped
thought with pears.

They say the horse
that spooks all morning
won’t spook again
the same afternoon.

Even if you toward
her past the fence post
where her sight
unbuckled at her sound.

Where a hen cropped
from the overgrowth,
leg over leg
and grounded me, wet
with pond water
though there was no pond.

The horse carries
the fat of its fear
in its shadow. The hen
carries the fat of its fear
in its evocation.

My fear is like a hen.
It wanders.