by Gitana Deneff
As you give me a
Reassuring smile.
Tell me that you'll always
Be there for me
Never hurting me.
We turn into newlyweds
On the longest honeymoon
Living and loving in the society
Of the young
Who will never understand
Our feelings.
They say we're getting
Too wound up
In each other.
But we laugh.
Don't they realize
That we are different?
We won't end up
Like others
Who never truly
Loved each other
Like we do.
How do they know
What my mind
And heart
Are saying?
"We'll be together forever,"
We said.
"No matter what.
We will get through everything
Because we are perfection
And no one can touch us."
And we smiled
Because we know
That nobody would.
Nobody did.
And we bloomed
For a little...
Even though no one touched us
And the Sun and Moon
Looked down on us
With envy
And the people of the world
Applauded us
We faltered.
We stumbled.
We fell.
And became our own poison.
You told me
To jeopardize everything
My morals were thrown away
And my dignity...
Buried
And I lowered myself
To you
For you
Pleasing you.
I tried to reject
Your acid.
Kept in a vile
In our hearts
Where our love took shelter
And was tainted
By your desires,
Your needs,
And my haunting guilt
Playing tug of war with my intestines
Every day.
We morphed into parasites
Living in one another
Tightening grips
On our lungs.
Breathing reduced to gasps.
We start sinking
In our web of lust,
Lies,
And decay.
Every comfort
Stabs the wound
Of our soiled love.
Love that was shriveling
In the oven
While we watched it
Knowing we couldn't save it.
We try to mend anything
And everything
As best as we know how.
But the damage had been done.
Burnt to smoldering ash.
Making our charcoal hearts crumble
And blow away.
We cry,
Wailing into the heavens
That have forsaken us.
"I thought we'd be
Together forever!"
You sputter into my shoulder.
"We thought lots of things."
I said.
"And in our hearts,
We always knew:
Forever was a fantasy
In our kingdom of make believe."
Last updated May 17, 2011