Break up

We planned it all, and Monday was the D-
day/
I hesitated but my instincts wouldn’t let
me stay/
I had no expectation but I knew I had
something to learn/
I pretended to be happy but inside I was
stern/
I knew we had a lot to talk but to start was
hard/
Losing my manly pride proved too tricky
and hard/
I never wanted to create any wrong
impression/
But I had to show you that above all am an
exception/
Most of your pals had known me, and they
all hate/
I had nothing against them but still they
will talk to date/
All the same life is life and I have to
live/
Regardless of the circumstances I will never
grieve/
Time came and we met, you still looked as
before/
You grinned at me but I wished I had a
smile to restore/
You tried hiding the pain but the eyes
showed it all/
I wished I could change it now once and for
all/
We walked away holding hands, the grip
was strong/
We both had mixed feelings but I knew we
weren’t wrong/
We were undecided on where to go, call it
confusion/
Wishing everyone could come up with an
idea or rather an illustration/
Finally we made up our minds, Sizzlin was
the place/
We walked reluctantly but I had to keep up
the pace/
We sat down facing each other and you
looked uneasy/
My hands became wet and my phone got
greasy/
The future is true, but only for those who
embrace the past/
The silence persisted for a while, I had to
break it with a blast/
You told me how hard it had been and I
realized it was mutual/
I tried hard to hide my emotions, so I made
my talk casual/
Every word from your mouth made me
believe all is lost/
I couldn’t explain any bit of it, I had to
stand the cost/
The feeling grew stronger, and I had to make
a confession/
Your face turned blurred, I lose the words
of expression/
After every storm comes sunshine, but that
didn’t seem to happen/
You promised not to turn back, regardless
of what happens/
I had no other option, so I had to respect
your talk/
I never wanted to insist, neither did I
wanted to stalk/
I never start what I can’t end, it was time
to part/
We walked side by side, but at last I knew
we would be apart/
I had wished that time wouldn’t come, I had
a lot to say/
Talking about the good past, my aim was to
make you stay/
You insisted on going, you said you were
tight and it was late/
Every word I said meant nothing, just like
an empty plate/
Giving up has never been an option, ad
prefer a break/
I hate to be the source of pain, not to talk
of an heartbreak/
I never believed in ‘old is gold’, now I know
its existence/
I can still feel the gap u left, so don’t blame
my persistence/