FYI

for Chris

I don’t really care that you live miles away.
I just need to know that you think of me sometimes,
and that you felt something different
when we first kissed.

I think it’s great that we were born only months apart.
I like that you’re a geek and I’m a diva but,
like everyone else, we still believe in love,
laughing at ourselves and the joy of life.

I don’t really care that all we share on a daily basis
is the moon and the stars.
I just need to know that you have also overcome
great sadness and tears
healed your heart and soul with faith,
moved past the treacherous roads of life’s journey
and no longer walk alone lost in a miserable forest.

I just need to know if you could deal
with our past histories,
with no judgment or regret over the decadent
and colorful and simply plain stupid.

I just need to know that you could be happy,
celebrate on the dance floor
with sheer abandon and feel the music
without drugs, inhibition, shame,
aware others are staring enviously at fools in love.

I don’t really need to know if you have found comfort with others
because of this ill-fated distance between us
I just need to know that you are comfortable
with me in your heart
and that you trust no one could ever take
what we share.
I just need to know that you would protect us
from unnecessary hurt
be honest with yourself and not fall apart
in the face of human nature.

I just need to know that you could feel the sun
in spite of the clouds
and that you enjoy the rain
even if it causes certain damage
because there is always something beautiful
to look forward to.

I just need to know if there is room
for disappointment
and you are still willing to walk across the bridge
with me
without trying to jump or push me in to the water down below.

I don’t really care that there is a time difference
when we speak on the phone,
or that the economy is bad
and we’re both practically broke.
I just need to know that the weight of the world
will not hold you down
and you will not wait for permission
to follow your dreams.

I don’t really care to know how many others
you have been with
or how many times you have fallen in love.
I just need to know that you will hold my hand
as we are both being stoned for our sins
without regret.

I don’t really care to know what you may have heard, read, or fancied about me.
I just need to know that you believe in how I feel about you
when the truths and lies subside.

All I really care to know is that you are aware
of the beauty within you
and that you have somehow changed my life.
I really love you
and that is all you really need to know.